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Gay Student Condemned By Church Dies By Suicide

Ben Wood, 21, bullied by Church Youth Leader, takes his own life.

Ben Wood, 21, bullied by Church Youth Leader, takes his own life.

Asheville, North Carolina – William “Ben” Wood was 21 when he died on the floor of his dorm at UNC-Asheville.  Friends who found him said that he was drawn up in a fetal position on May 8, 2013, having slashed open his veins.  The loss of this sensitive, justice-seeking young gay man is a tragedy by most accounts–his friends and school mates say he was a fine student, but in recent months his grades and school performance had plunged.  The university junior couldn’t deal with the prospect of going back to his neighborhood in Asheville without being a student any longer, according to his mother’s account in the Reconciling Ministries Network Blog.  As a teen, he had been irreparably wounded by a Youth Leader at his home church as he prepared to go on a Mission trip with his friends from the United Methodist Youth Fellowship.

His mom, Julie Wood, recounts how the misguided Youth Leader singled out her son for being gay in front of his peers.  The leader said, You all know, we all know, that Ben is gay.  Who here is comfortable being around him?”  Demanding a response from each youth in the group, the Leader then said, “Do you understand that Ben is going to hell?”  Once again, the Youth Leader pressed each youth for an answer about Ben.  Crushed, exposed, and broken by the experience, Ben came home while his UMYF friends left on the bus for the Mission Trip.  His mother, who stalwartly contends that their home church is a loving and supportive place, says that this was the trigger experience she believes led to the suicide of her son a few agonizing years later.  Mrs. Wood writes:

“Ben was told that he was not worthy of going on the mission trip.  He had been shamed, humiliated, and betrayed.  He was told that he did not deserve to be a part of the group.  He was no representative of God. 

Out of our front window, I saw the goldish colored Caviler abruptly whip into our driveway.   Ben ran up the porch steps and stood in the doorway.  One look, and I knew, something horrible had happened.  The flushed sides of his cheeks quivered as did his lip.  His breathing was rapid and his eyes just about to spill over. 

The church bus was loaded with Ben’s friends to go on that mission trip while my betrayed and broken son, walked alone around Salem Lake.   He must have felt so very abandoned and isolated. 

While he never lost his compassion for others, I think that this was the day that he gave up on people and God.” 

Skeptics may argue that there is no clear correspondence between the suicide of a young gay man years after the shaming incident that took place in a church youth group in his teens.  Others will say that the church is basically a loving and supportive place, but is put in a hard situation by teachings like those of the United Methodist Church that send an ambiguous, essentially rejecting message about lesbians and gay people.  On the one hand, the social teachings of the church say that every person, including “homosexuals,” is of “sacred worth.”  On the other, the United Methodist Church stubbornly rejects homosexuality as “incompatible” with Christian teaching–denying ordination and marriage to LGBT people, and defrocking their clergy who carry out same-sex marriage ceremonies, or who live openly as lesbian or gay people.

So, who stands guilty of Ben Wood’s death?  The Youth Minister who was applying what he believed the teachings of his church on homosexuality to be?  Ben’s so-called “friends” who one-by-one (under pressure from an adult leader, of course) abandoned Ben to shame and broken heartedness?  The theologians and clergy of the church, who cannot seem to reconcile the love of God on the one hand, and social heterosexism and homophobia on the other?  And what of Ben’s own responsibility to transcend the suffering of his youth–though this latter argument is little more than blaming a victim for his own demise?

Bens’ obituary says he was a genuine, complex, and worthwhile human being.  The Winston-Salem Journal and Sentinel  records that Ben “was a member of Sedge Garden United Methodist Church and was a Junior at UNC-Asheville. Ben had a kind and loving soul, with a great sense of humor. He was particularly compassionate to the needs and struggles of others more than himself and was a great journalist. To his younger sisters, Ben was a great big brother who shared lots of walks in the creeks and scavenger hunts with their stuffed animals.”  The obituary goes on to say that three clergy spoke at his funeral, and that his own maternal grandfather was a clergyman.  But Ben found so little hospitality and comfort from the churches around him and the clergy who served them that he could not and did not reach out to them in his darkest hours.  So, a sensitive, socially conscious young man, who happened to be gay and Christian, took his own life.

Dr. Stephen V. Sprinkle, Professor of Practical Theology at Brite Divinity School, and a native North Carolinian himself, issues this opinion and prayer for other young LGBT persons: “The churches and their leadership have much to answer for in the deaths of young people like Ben Wood.  While we may not be able to point to a smoking gun linking the suicide of young persons condemned by church teachings to the culpability of the churches, there is no doubt that Christian heterosexism and homophobia contribute to the climate that denigrates LGBTQ people and creates undue suffering in their lives.  Indeed, there are progressive and welcoming churches and clergy, and for them we give thanks.  But they are too few, and the silence of church people about the prejudice condemning LGBTQ folk is a major contributing factor in the horror of spiritual violence against them.”

Dr. Sprinkle concludes:  “Let us be crystal clear about this: the heterosexism and homophobia Ben Wood experienced in his life is a Christian heresy–one the churches and clergy of every stripe must find the courage to repent of and repudiate.  And we must do everything we can to make amends to youth like Ben, and to their families.”

February 7, 2014 - Posted by | Anglo Americans, Anti-LGBT hate crime, Brite Divinity School, Bullycide, gay men, gay teens, GLSEN, Hate Crimes, Heterosexism and homophobia, Homosexuality and the Bible, LGBT teen suicide prevention, LGBTQ, LGBTQ suicide, North Carolina, religious hate speech, religious intolerance, United Methodist Church | , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,


  1. I want to say that despite what ANY so-called “Christian” says, their church’s leaders still practice discrimination and hypocrisy when it comes to gay people. The Pope being unable and unwilling to judge does NOT mean that the church has changed anything. The Catholic church still expects any gay person in it’s ranks to be celibate.

    I too gave up on Christianity because of an experience similar to that of this beautiful young man. I, however, found an alternative religion. To my knowledge, Wicca, my chosen religion, is the ONLY religion that accepts and, indeed, embrace gay people with no expectations of anything other than to be who and what we were born to be.

    Comment by John Cobb | February 7, 2014

  2. Thou Shalt Reap What Ye Have Sown… the Church has so poisoned the minds of Christianatics like this youth minister that they actually feel mistreating this poor young man was something of which Christ would have approved. This is precisely why the Church is almost completely irrelevant in modern life except in a few Third-World countries (and Russia) where ignorance and hatred are easy to export – and that is a travesty because the world needs REALChristian love and compassion now more than ever. This is a tragedy that could have been prevented but the Church’s blood-frenzy of antigay hatred keeps it from seeing the truth of its own horrors. Jesus wept, indeed. It is so hard not to HATE the people responsible for this fine young man’s death. But that is the challenge it presents to true followers of Christ.

    Comment by mzvky | February 8, 2014


    Comment by shuggypooh | February 27, 2014

  4. That’s sad. Once at church the preacher did that to me, saying I needed to give up all my gay lovers—which hurt the most, as I didn’t have any….glad I was a bit older, and certainly ,no one opined about me personally….gossip.
    incidentally, the bible lists gossip on par with gays….so, there you have it.

    in this particular cult, you go to hell anyway if you quit.

    Comment by katie | February 28, 2014

  5. Wow! When my 13 year old son came out, I told him that I love him and that he is my son. When his Youth Pastor found out he wanted to lecture my son on being gay. I told him that he will not discuss this issue at all without me or my wife present. I told him that my son should not be singled out for being gay and that he needs to treated like every other youth.

    Guess what, there have been no problems since we had the conversation. I am a Christian Conservative dad who loves and accepts his gay 13 year old son.

    Comment by Nate | May 21, 2014

  6. Reblogged this on JerBear's Queer World News, Views & More From The City Different – Santa Fe, NM and commented:
    A sad story that triggers sorrow when I recall my best friend who committed suicide while I was a freshman in a Seventh-Day Adventist college. It’s sad when religions drive people to take their own lives then blame the victims…

    Comment by jerbearinsantafe | October 27, 2014

  7. Unitarian Universalism is another religion that embraces everyone no matter what their sexual preference.

    Comment by Paul Wilczynski | October 28, 2014

  8. How far the traditional church has come from the original teachings of Jesus! He who warned us about the established assumptions of His day, the One who lifted up the poor and oppressed and turned the Establishment and tables upside down need followers who will follow In His steps, not the traditional church.

    Comment by Ruth Gray | October 28, 2014

  9. R.I.P Ben! I met you like twice but I thought you were one of the coolest:) I know my sister loved you<3

    Comment by Zoe | November 12, 2014

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